It’s certainly not as though I am

30 06 2008

I’ve been thinking about the title of that book – I Am Not But I Know I Am– by Louie Giglio. Since I read through it a while ago, the title has been the one thing that has consistently come back to me.

Whatever it is I think I am, I’m not. I may not be worth anything on my own, but the immense thing is that I know the I AM of the Bible.

I heard a song this morning called Take Away by Mainstay. The lyrics are below:

Rid me of the notion that I ever had any rights
Cleanse me of the motives that come in such a clever disguise
Ruin my agenda, holy as it never was

It’s all from Your hand
and there’s nothing that’s mine
and all that You give
You’re free to take away

I’m just trying to hold on, clinging to the dream inside
I was only selfish, and you were only part of my life

Every breath, every word
There isn’t one thing I deserve
And all that I am is Yours

Justin Anderson from Mainstay explains the song like this: “I think that somewhere, deep down, every person believes that they deserve something. America has taught us that we have inalienable rights, and that we are entitled to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. In a civic sense, I could not agree more. The problem is, this principle has slowly and subversively eeked its way into our perception of our relationship to God. The gospel message is quickly becoming that we are basically good, and that Jesus will help us through the tough times and be our friend. However, the reality that the bible presents is that mankind has fallen into sin, and on an individual and corporate level deserves death and separation from God. We have NO rights before God. There is nothing we can lay claim to. That is what makes the gospel so good – we deserve nothing but wrath and hell, and in Christ we get right-standing with God and undeserved favor. With this basic premise in place, our understanding of our health and prosperity quickly changes from entitlement to humble thanks. If we deserve nothing but wrath, then not only is forgiveness an amazing grace to praise God for, but every breath and every moment away from hell is grace as well. Every thing we have is from God, and He is sovereign and good to take away whatever He wants from us, whenever He wants to. This understanding takes the focus off of man, makes us grateful for every breath and keeps us humbly trusting God with no feelings of entitlement – only gratitude.” This explanation was taken from this site. The song is amazing and you must listen to it.

What it feels like is like this image I found online that kind of describes it, a bit.

Because once love is found, everything else is abandoned. Jesus said it like this:

“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.”

Why else do we chase after those things, those people, we love, the way we do? Yes, these things can be bad, but when they’re good, they’re very good. The chase is a thrill, and the everyday pursuit is a constant joy; it’s beautiful. It’ll change lives. It’s revolutionary.


Leo’s birthday

29 06 2008

Although it rained and it didn’t look likely to happen, it still did, and it was huge fun. It’s amazing that being out on the sea can be so calming, yet so terrifying. We were caught in a storm and the boat rocked from side to side. It was quite thrilling.

Sitting on the top of the boat, listening to the waves and splashes as people jumped, plopped, flopped, dove into the water… it was easy to see why Jesus loved people. For the community. That is all. It was, and is, wonderful. Why else are we alive?


28 06 2008

The event was tonight, but the best part about it I felt was the drama. It was so, so powerful.

And then there was the long comfortable chat with James which was cool. I feel blessed to count him a friend. It’s amazing, and awe-some. God is truly good. I haven’t felt like admitting or saying it for a while, but I realised again tonight that even though life and we ourselves are often not perfect, God is. Which is why we don’t need to knock our blocks off trying to do everything, perfectly or not. Yowwza.

If it were like that

27 06 2008

I’m watching episode 5 of Reaper right now because I’ve finished everything else and I’m really bored. Since I got in this morning, I also spent 23 minutes watching the loading bar for the songs I’d chosen to transfer to my phone. It’s now only 86MB free, as opposed to 500 something. 23 minutes. Seriously.

And THEN I went through my iPod and updated my music on there. Sad to say this, but I really want pop today. I’ve been listening to Matchbox Twenty. Hmm… I am that bored.

But it’s not like I didn’t do any work – I prepped for the huge checking session this afternoon with Word and banged off a lot of ideas and points they should make note of. It was boring-as.

*And now I’m on episode 6. This is what post-exam activities days are like.

Quote of the day

26 06 2008

Whatever you’ve been doing today, in amongst the busyness and stress, and general “Adultitis,” may your heart be rested with this advice from Ella Wheeler Wilcox:

“Let there be many windows in your soul, that all the glory of the universe may beautify it.”

Just because it’s too easy to get caught up in the manic spin-cycle of life.

Typhoon 8

25 06 2008

It was taken off something like 15 minutes before noon, which meant that the exams weren’t cancelled. Not so cool now!

Another take on Indiana Jones

24 06 2008

Just killing time online this morning before I settle down to do some marking. Marking silly, repetitive exam papers is the bane of my existence.

Hahahahahahahaha!!!! Indiana Jones and the Curse of the Wheelchair.

Found the image above whilst procrastinating as well as this, and this. Ahh, sweet Internet. You are a good friend.