It’s certainly not as though I am

30 06 2008

I’ve been thinking about the title of that book – I Am Not But I Know I Am– by Louie Giglio. Since I read through it a while ago, the title has been the one thing that has consistently come back to me.

Whatever it is I think I am, I’m not. I may not be worth anything on my own, but the immense thing is that I know the I AM of the Bible.

I heard a song this morning called Take Away by Mainstay. The lyrics are below:

Rid me of the notion that I ever had any rights
Cleanse me of the motives that come in such a clever disguise
Ruin my agenda, holy as it never was

It’s all from Your hand
and there’s nothing that’s mine
and all that You give
You’re free to take away

I’m just trying to hold on, clinging to the dream inside
I was only selfish, and you were only part of my life

Every breath, every word
There isn’t one thing I deserve
And all that I am is Yours

Justin Anderson from Mainstay explains the song like this: “I think that somewhere, deep down, every person believes that they deserve something. America has taught us that we have inalienable rights, and that we are entitled to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness. In a civic sense, I could not agree more. The problem is, this principle has slowly and subversively eeked its way into our perception of our relationship to God. The gospel message is quickly becoming that we are basically good, and that Jesus will help us through the tough times and be our friend. However, the reality that the bible presents is that mankind has fallen into sin, and on an individual and corporate level deserves death and separation from God. We have NO rights before God. There is nothing we can lay claim to. That is what makes the gospel so good – we deserve nothing but wrath and hell, and in Christ we get right-standing with God and undeserved favor. With this basic premise in place, our understanding of our health and prosperity quickly changes from entitlement to humble thanks. If we deserve nothing but wrath, then not only is forgiveness an amazing grace to praise God for, but every breath and every moment away from hell is grace as well. Every thing we have is from God, and He is sovereign and good to take away whatever He wants from us, whenever He wants to. This understanding takes the focus off of man, makes us grateful for every breath and keeps us humbly trusting God with no feelings of entitlement – only gratitude.” This explanation was taken from this site. The song is amazing and you must listen to it.

What it feels like is like this image I found online that kind of describes it, a bit.

Because once love is found, everything else is abandoned. Jesus said it like this:

“The kingdom of heaven is like treasure hidden in a field. When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field. Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls. When he found one of great value, he went away and sold everything he had and bought it.”

Why else do we chase after those things, those people, we love, the way we do? Yes, these things can be bad, but when they’re good, they’re very good. The chase is a thrill, and the everyday pursuit is a constant joy; it’s beautiful. It’ll change lives. It’s revolutionary.


A song.

17 01 2008

It’s a quiet day at work today because all the middle managers have gone out for a seminar/workshop/conference or something along those lines. Marking takes on a whole new perspective when there’s no perceived pressure. Air1 played a song that really touched me this morning – ‘Believe’ by Mainstay:

I don’t know if I still have the strength to get up again
I don’t know if I can face my own reflection
Jesus, take this heart that feels so cold again and make it new

I hold this hope inside that you’ll never leave me

When all around me starts to fall and when my faith it seems so small
Even in my darkest hour, I will believe
Even if the sun begins to fall, even when I feel nothing at all
Even if I’m all alone, I will believe

I don’t know how I could turn my back and walk away
All I really want is for your love to hold me
Jesus, take this heart and make it whole again


I know you’ll never leave me

It’s beautiful and speaks to me this morning because so much of what we go through in daily life fluctuates with our mood. If we choose to believe that the impossible can happen, things will happen in this world that are unimaginable. If we each take the plight of the world into our hands and strive for justice, mercy and forgiveness, it will happen. It can’t not.

I found this on Google Images this morning, while procrastinating. What do you think of it?